Bonjour~ Welcome to another new year!! A big special thanks to those following me on my social medias for the support! Last year was a big disappointment to me. I've tried but all I can say, is that I am going to keep trying. Here are some resolutions from last year I've lived up to:
Disclaimer: in this blog post, I kinda went off on a racialized tirade against a Youtuber. If you don't wish to read about it, I will place S-K-I-P in front of it.
Disclaimer: in this blog post, I kinda went off on a racialized tirade against a Youtuber. If you don't wish to read about it, I will place S-K-I-P in front of it.
- Still have not made any new friends and will continue to not do so.
- I've tried working out several times last year but with the dead weight in the home, it's complicated. I hope it changes this year once I TRY to travel!
- It has been hot and cold. As I am typing this, it is FREEZING!
- I will not be eating out at the restaurants here ever again. I am dead serious this time. The only time I go, is if another family member is paying for it. I don't spend money here anymore and won't again. Same goes for going to purchase personal products and etc.
- I had no time last year to brush up on my Japanese. Last year was so stressful, you have no idea!
- Since my audience is growing, I have to remain active on social media. However, it will be to a minimum.
- I was going to do my crafts last year, but again, had no time to do so.
- I did get my new wigs. You can view them on my Instagram in some of my photos. However, I did not get a blond one.
- I was going to cash out from the websites I am apart of but decided not to. I have been working my ＊ss off last month it's ridiculous. That's that determination I have to earn my freedom.
- I have cut back on purchasing clothes. I might buy something new if I like it but won't be spending like I have these past couple of years. I have more important things to spend my money and time on.
- I'm going to try one more time to get a job, if it's not meant to be then I know what to do next【move】. I will continue to use some of the websites I am apart of as usual.
- I will start distancing myself from these fake ＊ss classmates of mine. As I've said on Instagram, those who were there in 2017 will not exist to me in 2018. I was already ignoring their existence but tried to give them another chance but never again. We're done!
- As a New Years treat, I've purchased a few fitness wear for me. They are strictly for flattening my tummy and lifting my bum. I know that I've said that I was cashing out but instead, I will wait later to cash out. Here are some of the items I've purchased.
- I purchased these two Mopas biker shorts from Amazon. After trying them on, they are a lot longer than I thought they were. I bought these for nude to wear over underwear with certain outfits.
- Sweet Sweat Waist Trainer- Had to return it, as it was too big on me. I am going to save up to purchase Keyshia Ka'oir's waist trainer. It looks more effective than this.
- Booty Bands- Had to exchange as it did not fit me. Getting my replacements, they fit perfectly! I can't wait to start working out in them!
- Body Shaper fit perfectly!
- 2 pack body shaper/1 body shaper- they are shorts. I bought three, out of the three, I only like one of them. Good thing I will just use them for working out.
- I will start ignoring all of the ignorance and the cesspool of misery to the depths of Hell they belong. I am going to live my life and one day, those who betrayed me will be the ones wanting me back and I will ignore their asses. I have more important things to do. I won't kiss no one's ass for friendship or for family to love me. I am going to do my best to outdo their asses regardless.
ѕкір Well you guys know that I have been venting on Twitter about my issues regarding my classmates and how it was affecting me spiritually. So this YouTuber who I've been following for four years decided to write a cryptic tweet about me. I will refer to this person as a 'Gossip Merchant'. A vulture who enjoys picking at the bones as they are bottom feeders, scum suckers, lonely bums who believes anything is beneath them. I could be reaching but to me, it felt like he【the vulture】 was directing that tweet at me. I guess he believes that he was trying to be the moral high ground yet his whole meal ticket is built on negativity. So he's the last person to act holier than thou. He's like the gobbledyg**k who has ADHD who fumbles over his words but when it comes to things like this, he's always got something to say. It seems like at times, he'll write slick things in his tweets, such as weeks ago when I wrote 'Happy New Year' in my native language which is French. If he's so important, we would be talking about him, not him talking about others. So he has no moral high ground, when this is all he has. It isn't just him, there are tons of folks like him online and offline. Making stupid remarks, yet they are single, miserable and ran through. Don't mind me 'hating,' let them eat cake. They don't confront me, they write cryptic messages and believe that because I have mental issues, I won't be able to decipher their messages. I think years ago when I retweeted about how people were reacting to Rene Zelweggher altering her appearance, he made a 'WTF' tweet that I felt was indirectly at me. I could have said something back to him but at the end of the day, this guy is a total nutjob. I'm not the one online all day and all night, posting nothing but negative tweets about any and everything. It could be something as small as a trending topic that sends him through the roof. I'm surprised he hasn't been diagnosed as being mentally ill. I can count at least four mental illnesses from him. Too much contradiction, he's just as negative and ignorant as the audience he belittles. I don't care about not having a big audience, I'm not worried about being admired online. The fact that these classmates seek me out, lets me know that I am admired but OFFLINE! You damn right, I don't need these people in my life, which is why I was conflicted about it. I had to take my time and observe the actions of these people, sh＊t, at end of the year, I plan to block the rest of my classmates. I don't need these people in my life, there's nothing beneficial in having them lingering around, being nosy and contributing nothing to my life. I should have unfollowed him last year when he started going in on transsexuals being banned in the army. What a way to alienate your audience, and considering the area he lives in【which has their own gay neighborhood】, I wouldn't be surprised he has messed with a T-girl and didn't know【or cared】. He gives me tendencies because he's very obsessed with Black male athletes. I've never seen him praise White athletes! He fiending for that BBC. 'WTF' to that! xDDD As a matter of fact, he bashes White athletes, but he uplifts one who spouted off racist epithets in a s＊x tape. I have been ignoring his homophobia because I try to keep an open mind but I also like to keep my enemies close to study them. I also didn't like the way he came at a Black woman who was a supporter of his by putting her on blast. Come to think of it, he NEVER retweets Black women. I think he's one of those White men I've discussed before who likes Black men but not Black women. He's one of those 'White' men who have nothing but Black male friends and too ingratiated into Black American culture【мџԁѕнагќ】. They are typically the types who are a reject of his own community, so he goes to associate with men who he views as inferior to lift him up. I could go on and on about this peasant but it's a waste of time. Further reminds me of why I am wary of White men because of their extreme homophobia and the ones who hang out with nothing but minorities, being too comfortable with disrespecting the women of their race. I'll say this lastly, I am online to make money, not to care about what underachievers think. So stop whining about everything, and stop being homophobic, Napoleon! I've placed him on mute so I won't have to read anymore childish, contradicting soliloquies and how he belittles his audience. I would unfollow but that would f＊ck up my score on Influenster. Glad Twitter made the 'mute' button which he will remain in, until he decides to unfollow me. LMAO He's useless! I remember my brother and my father listening to his videos and saying 'what the hell is wrong with this dude?' This is why he has no room to talk about anyone being 'negative' and associating with negative people. He is the total embodiment of it. His entire platform is based on negativity, and he's hiding his hate speech behind the first amendment. Those ғаԍѕ he keeps bashing on Twitter and on his green screen, I am one of those ғаԍѕ he's talking about. Unlike him, at least I am open about my flaws and not trying be better than the people who have the same issues. This is the year of making moves. If you aren't moving fast enough, I am going to let you go. And that's what I did with this recent classmate. I believe he's mad at the fact that I won't pay for his product. I'm not one to hate on anyone making money online but I refuse to support someone who hates the LGBTQ community as well as Black women! If you are going to be the moral police, at least address the matter the first time, not act like an immature junior high student who allowed this to get to this point. He's ridiculous, abusing his audience, and after that, wants them to support him because he's not like the rest of us. You, as well as my classmates don't have morals that was violated. Neither you or them have any concept of standards. So spare me with the phony moral outrage. You love drama! You love mess! You post videos/tweets about it everyday! The internet got these folks fooled into thinking that just because they have a pie-hole, that it means they can speak about subjects they know nothing about. You don't know me, know nothing about my life so I suggest you stay your off-White reject ＊ss in your place. You may scare others with your fake machismo attitude but you don't scare me. No cent coming out of my pocket was ever going to you. It's my damn money, I need that to get to where I'm going! Screw you! Ugly ＊ss White boy! Stop getting comfortable around Black people and stay in your lane! Sick of these rejects running to be around Black people. After I block the rest of these classmates, hopefully, they will fade into obscurity and back into the slimy gutters they came from. Now go cry on Twitter about that!
This was a comment from Credit to Konnan from TheColi.com about one of his associates【I have no issue with that guy】 : I don't know who ****** is but reading his timeline he's another internet smark thinking they're too cool for the product
For example while he makes a decent enough point he's scolding wrestling fans for tweeting thank you Vince because he views him as a piece of shyt while essentially doing the same thing himself live tweeting about a product he evidently hates.
Don't shyt on the next man for doing something you yourself is doing because sitting there on some I'm holier than thou how dare you support this product shyt while at the same time giving them a rating because youre watching the product you are shytting on is some next level corny bipolar shyt
To my surprise, he and his entourage gets disrespected a lot on this website... lol
And I'll say this again, I do not care about having friends!!! I've made it this far without them, why attempt to shame me for not having what I don't want. And this is what was I was thinking about when this old friend showed up. I do not want to live in the past, I don't want to be reminded of the pain I'll feel seeing them all again and how they abandoned me! I was having flashbacks of how this person did not have my back during school and how she reacted to me calling her and the others out. Also the flashback of the homophobia that I had to endure. I am a person who suffers from many mental illnesses, so don't expect me to be perfect in my assessment of interacting with people where I live. I was promoting 'winning' by eliminating those who are a drain on me. That's my Twitter and I'm going to complain on it! If you don't want to read it, then get the f＊ck off my follower list! Take that holier than thou fake religious psycho rambling ass on somewhere else then! If you are not going to talk TO me, then you have no reason to talk ABOUT me.
So I am going to place a new rule as an implement for these classmates and old friends of mine. They have to donate to me in order for me to deal with them. They can ask about me all they want as long as they put money into my Paypal account. If they want to gain my trust, they will have to pay for it. Otherwise, they can kick rocks. I plan to block the rest of them at the end of the year because I'm sick of looking at them on my social media. #ReparationsForXin
I will be more careful of what I post due to some of the nutjobs I have following me on Twitter. At one point, I contemplated making a new page, but I get tired of doing that. So I will continue placing these fools on mute and focus on doing reviews. The thing about me, is that I don't mind sharing certain parts of my personal life that are bothering me. I posted up a meme on Instagram about removing toxic people from my life. And that's exactly what I did. I saw that nothing was going anywhere with this person so they were removed. I became depressed about feeling like I was just a 'seeing if you weren't doing well.' As mentioned earlier, once they see that I'm not, they keep their distance, in turn, I will get rid of them. That's just how I work. What? You want me to keep them around so they can continue seeing my life spiral out of control so they can tell other classmates about me. Please... I treat these offline hoes like I treat the ones online. No special treatment from me.
Moving along, since I was all over the place...
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| These are my samples from that website I won't bring up on here. Got these 1/9 |
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| Since grey hairs have been emerging lately【who can blame me from all of the stress I am going through at the moment】 that I had to go out and purchase a box of hair dye by L'oreal Paris. They sent me a coupon on my birthday so I went ahead and bought it. I don't think I've bought their hair dye before. Purchased on 1/14 |
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| Well well! This is my latest Voxbox from Influenster! Herbal Essences Refresh Blue Ginger & Micellar Water Shampoo and Refresh Blue Ginger In-The-Shower Foam Conditioner. Getting them back to back, which is good! I hope one day I can score one of the bundle boxes like before. Got this 1/18. |
I have successfully removed that website from my blog entries. It didn't even take that long, nor was it a complicated task. I will continue to use that website and post the samples on here, because after all, this is a REVIEW website.
1/26 【will add pix later】This was yet another sad attempt at straightening my hair. I think I will have to purchase a straightening comb to use right along with it. Just like I've done a couple of years ago, my glorious Babyliss Pro Flat Iron did a wonderful job at what it could. Which was straightening my roots but once it got to my ends, it was hard and unmanageable. What I had done afterwards, was put it in a pony tail. I thought about getting another flat iron, but just like with the Conair ones, the turnout will always be the same. It's just that the ends of my hair won't straighten unless a comb was going through it. But for next month, I plan to go blonde again.
On 1/31, I had in incident with some Black chicks at a Walmart. As mentioned on Twitter, I will keep you all posted on what to do next. I have to wait ten days to get back to them. If nothing gets done, a video will be made. Yeah, if it's not one thing it's another. Louisiana is such a toxic place, and draws in toxic people from other places to its crevices. God help me...
And that's it folks! I wish I could go on hiatus. I am not in the right state of mind at the moment. Just sick of drama and dealing with immature people. I need to get my passport. Anyways, later fiends!✌
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