Bonjour amour! Welcome to the February edition of this blog post! I know this post is in cursive, which is now a defunct script of writing. I hope you all are able to comprehend this post.😁
Before I start, I had to get another laptop 1/31. I gave my other one to my mother. I will just use my new main pc just for video editing and this one for business.
This month is considered Black History Month to others, it's Asian horror month for me. It's the month where I watch Japanese horror, Chinese martial artist films and Japanese horror video games.
2/1 Tis the month of love and I know some may feel depressed not having anyone. I'm kinda grateful because as you know it's dust haven where I live as well as where I work at. I am not interested in men of any race from down here. They are all trash to me. No personality at all.👎
I made a strawberry🍓 and blueberry smoothie. I recall Creole Bella telling me she wanted to get into doing smoothies. I hope these photos motivate her to her goals.
2/5 I shopped Black owned by purchasing from Keyshia Ka'oir.
I purchased a Spri performance ball. I have been wanting one for years and finally got it when it was on sale.
I don't know why because I'll never use it. lol smdh😩
Say hello to my little friend. I'd rather have this than some p＊ssy ＊ss dude.
2/11 Bought some more hair care products that were on sale: Earth Supplied, The Mane Choice and Schwarzkopf Smooth n Shine. I love having a friend on the inside for hookups. lol
2/12 Got my awesome items from Yandy!!
And I love them!! I didn't get to wear them this year but possibly next year.
Also my Combo Waist Trainer from Keyshia Ka'oir came as well!
I wore it today at work!
Ravioli with spinach, spaghetti sauce and a splash of parmesan cheese.🍝
Thought this was cute and I love me some unicorns!! My munchkin does too!🦄
I don't do R.I.P.s very well but I'd like to say r.i.p. to my aunt and now my cousin. When my aunt passed away, I couldn't react to it. I felt bad for my father who I am not able to tell of the bad news. I barely knew her, my older brother did. We hadn't seen her in years. It really hit me hard getting into the car from work and Mom telling me that our cousin passed away. I broke down crying. It wasn't the news I wanted to hear coming home from a hard day at work. I had purchased some kawaii new stuffed animals for a photoshoot and I'm not in the mood for it. I am going to take some time off from work because with the losses as well as things getting too much for me at work, I think it's for the best. I also need to find a new job. I hated that I never got to call her and tell her I appreciated her for believing in me when no one else did. That she never said anything bad about me unlike the rest of the family has. She was there for me when I was working at Michaels. One of the last things she said to me through my mother, was that she was proud of me... I lose everyone close to me. I feel so alone...😭
2/14 Happy Valentine's Day! All I did was dress up and go to work. An older White woman gave me a ten dollar tip. .
Even one of the managers was like I got their condoms so they can go and f＊ck, I don't want to hear it, get they ＊sses up out this sto'. lmao
2/15 I am off today and will call in tomorrow. There's no way in hell I'm going to work in this damn weather and risk being stuck in that stupid ＊ss city.
I just love Black and Asian l3sbianism in p0rn.
And speaking of love, I seem to have fallen for Chris Cuomo from CNN's Primetime. It's been like this since late last month and not sure what drew me to him, I am guessing after someone mentioned his older brother Andrew on El Es A. Also the fact that I am nuts over Italian men all over again just like I was back in 2003-04. I try to watch his show every night. I am not with his politics but I watch just to look at him and curious about what that mouth can do. lol Oops!👅💦
2/16 My cousin's death, coping with depressing, debating on if I still want to continue working and him not being the same, it's a lot. What I've been doing today and last night was sewing hearts.💜
I was suppose to do these before Valentine's day, I didn't have time. It feels good being home and doing the things I love to do. My mother was telling me she was never creative or knew how to sew. I didn't sew these with a sewing machine, I sew these by hand. lol Having a hobbies has helped me cope with depression. Like in the 90s, it was boybands such as The Backstreet Boys, video games🎮, drawing🖍🖌, writing stories✏, writing music🎹 and fantasizing about the future. Nowadays it's work and being online. With the exception of my family being a small part of it. This is why I am always encouraging people to have a hobby. Being different isn't a bad thing. I love being different. This is how you weed out the cesspool of trash this world consists of. I was also at peace when Empty Shells never existed in my social circle. I am trying to reclaim my happiness.
Baked some cookies today.🍪
2/20 Today was my cousin's funeral. Seeing my mother break down made me cry. I am going to post a tribute to my cousin on my Instagram.
I have been reading from practically everyone about traveling. Man I wish I could just up and travel right now. With everything on my mind right now, I need to refresh and regroup. My friend Breeny has been wanting to travel. I may get in touch with her. I don't want to travel alone. Creole Bella and I need to go on some adventures.🛫🚌
Got another Voxbox from Influenster.📦
It's by a brand entitled Hey Humans. It includes toothpaste🦷, body wash🛁, body lotion and deodorant. They haven't sent me a full Voxbox like this in YEARS! As much hard work I put into that site, it's about time they gave me back voxboxes with more than one item in it.
Last but not least... My Beauty & The Beast inspired rose LED light. I thought the same as my mom when she told me she thought it would spin around. Unfortunately, nope. I think the handling messed it up because the lights were suppose to be at the top but oh well...
And that's about it. I just wish other businesses were hiring and were paying more than where I am but they're not. I may need to explore other careers because I am just fed up with dealing with people, especially from down here. Anyways, if you've enjoyed this blog post and have found it useful, feel free to leave a comment, share and submit a donation. Until next time, au revoir~✌
