12/1 I was not ready for this month after all that has happened to me this year. I am going to try and make it through it.😢
I spotted the crown ring👑💍 I wanted from Walmart since I wasn't able to get it when I was there. I also purchased my beauty vitamins along with it.
After shipping out my latest order, I decided to cash out at the survey websites I am apart of. I do this ever so often. I also need to cash out for gift cards. Plus add some miles into my airline accounts.
12/6 I walked off my job today. I went with my mother to different stores. The first store, we went to was a boutique we've never been to. They had a lot of nice stuff in there, I plan to return to buy some stuff. We went to Rainbow and I got some stuff to cheer me up.
There are more items I bought but I didn't feel like taking pictures of them.
Oh yeah here's the lovely dragon necklace I bought with those.
I listen to my older brother when he plays music in his room, this song instantly caught my attention.
I thought it was a jazz song but it's really a song by the late Phyllis Hyman. This song definitely describes how I feel, especially around this time of year. My father and cousin being gone, and also just being alone for being single since forever.
12/7 But to some good news, I had fun going to Gatti's Pizza(formally known as Gattiland) with Mom. I hadn't been here since 2005 on my 20th birthday. We will be going back here again.
Also, this dress at this bridal shop is really beautiful. I was struggling to get a picture of it from the front so the lady who worked there had to turn it around for me. I wish I could wear it...😞
12/8 It's my birthday. I went to a few places with my mother. I helped her find some shoes for the wedding in a couple of days. I didn't buy anything from the mall which is usual for me.
I ended up purchasing from places outside of the mall, such as Sephora, BJ's and Ulta. But I also got my Monster burger and fries from Red Robin.
And speaking of Red Robin, this place used to be jumping yeas ago. Ever since Covid, people are going out less and ordering online more. I have to admit, the more I sat there, looking around, I felt a void. I looked at the seat next to me to realize my Dad wasn't there when he usually was. I miss him... I would have asked one of my siblings to take me but they're always busy and I don't want to feel like a burden on them. I have been thinking a lot about moving out and away from Louisiana. I wish it was that easy.
12/11 Today is the wedding for my relative. I rolled up in that b＊tch like Lady Dimitrescu.
The scenery was beautiful but the wedding itself was too ghetto and thrown together. I posted my photos on my IG but here are the full photos of myself.
12/17 I have been seeing interracial couples that are BW/WM all day today. Still would like to know where these couples are from. As mentioned on Twitter, I saw this gorgeous Hapa chick. She had her hair braided down in two plats, wore a white mid drift top explosing her cute little belly and blue jean bell bottoms. She was hot! I had seen her before with her Asian mom but was glad she finally came back to my area. Normally around this time of year, I be craving an Asian or Hapa chick. I just wanted to kiss that cute flat tummy. I wish my tummy was flat.😩
12/25 So today I watched No Time To Die, which is Daniel Craig's last Bond film. I have to admit, Daniel Craig got a body! Looks like he's packing too!
Regardless of what folks think of his looks, I'd rather f＊ck him than these balls scratching, stinky hands having, wet chicken smelling, cry baby bum ＊ss White dudes down here!
I baked some brownie ginger bread stuff.
12/28 I received my Voxbox from Influenster!
It's the Creme of Nature Argan Oil from Morocco VoxBox! This blog includes: Strength & Shine Leave-In Conditioner, Style & Shine Foaming Mousse, Perfect Edges Extra Firm Hold Gel, and Intensive Conditioning Treatment
12/29 I am still shadowbanned on IG and Youtube, I am going to retire from IG next month. It's like one minute, folks see my photos, the next they do. I am going to save my old photos and keep it moving. I will put in my description that I am retiring from uploading photos and will use it to promote my Patreon.
12/30 Returning back to work and guess what? You've got it. Got asked out by this dusty ＊ss light skinned older dude. Talking about 'how about dinner, Xin.' I have been feeling disgustedly lately with the trash I have been attracting; old, broke, dusty. I know that around the holidays is when these guys really start acting desperate.
One thing I hate about having my store right now, is the fact that I am losing money(customers having items in carts but not purchasing) due to me removing Stripe as a payment option. I am stuck in a dispute with a scammer which I have to wait til next month to resolve. Stripe knew it was fraudulent, yet allowed the payment to go through. It shows incompetence on their part. I've had enough of that site and just decided to get rid of it once and for all. I am still getting sales but people hate Paypal now because of their increased fees and I don't blame them!
12/31 To conclude this post, as well as year, overall, this year sucked! I've lost loved ones who I loved and really looked out for me while they were alive. I miss them and all I have are their memories. I am walking into a new year alone and stuck at a job/location I don't want to be at. I don't know what to do from here. This job is low class and it makes me feel low classed. Sick of being surrounded by gross men and snakes. I need to figure out what the hell I'm going to do...