I Keep Hearing Shamrocks Baby🍀🌈🪙

Bonjour loves~ Welcome to the March 2022 edition of this blog! Click here to continue~

3/1 It's not unusual to wake up in sadness. With everything that has transpired since last year, it's no wonder. I have been making changes to my circle, cutting off certain people. I am already bombarded with depression, but like I said in my previous post, I am not about to stop living my life to become a therapist for spiritually declined people.

Since I have some free time on my hands lately, I have been ordering books for research purposes. Here's what I got:

Edit- Books that are on sale, will have a link if you hover over them. If there's something you're interested, feel free to purchase today!

Samhain
Exorcism: The Battle Against Satan and His Demons
The History of the Devil: With 350 Illustrations (Dover Occult)
The Arcana of Freemasonry: A History of Masonic Symbolism (Dover Occult)
The Dark Sacrament: True Stories of Modern-Day Demon Possession and Exorcism
Take a Walk on the Dark Side: Rock and Roll Myths, Legends, and Curses
The Encyclopedia Of Witchcraft & Demonology
The Celtic Wheel of the Year: Christian & Pagan Prayers & Practices for Each Turning
Reasons for the Seasons: Origins of the Christian Holidays
Kanashibari: True Encounters With the Paranormal In Japan
Modern Japanese Urban Legends: Non-Supernatural Rumors In Popular Culture: Modern Day Folk Lore

I have more books coming soon this month:

Astrology and Numerology: History and Meanings of Zodiac Signs and Numbers
Enneagram: 3 Books in 1. The Most Powerful Collection of Self Discovery: Tarot, Numerology, Astrology
The Thirteenth Tribe: The Khazar Empire and its Heritage
Inside the Dark Web, Myths & Legends
Voodoo and African Traditional Religion
Runes for Beginners: A Guide to Reading Runes in Divination, Rune Magic, and the Meaning of the Elder Futhark Runes (Divination for Beginners Series).
Myths & Legends

Depending on the content, they will be available at my online store.

3/3 Got my freebie in the mail today!

Olay Vitamin E Oil Serum, Nourishing Hydration Booster, Fragrance-Free, 1.0 Oz. After trying it, I have to be careful with it. It's a bit greasy!

This photo got me all inspired! I might even attempt to do this!

3/8 Today, I received my parcel from Windsor. Sorry, they had a sale and couldn't resist but fortunately, I didn't buy much.

Don't be surprised that if I can't fit these clothes that they will be up at my store. Edit- Sure enough, that cute skirt at the top doesn't fit my fat a＊＊! It's on my store now.

3/9 Here's my second batch of sales items from Rainbow Shop.

Y'all... I really LOVE those platforms and slippers!!

3/16 I have not been writing here for a while due to nothing really going on. Today marks the one year anniversary of my father's death. I cried last night and couldn't sleep worth a damn. I wish he was still here but Mom tells me he'll always be here. I feel so lost without him. I don't want to share too much as it's real personal. I just miss my Dad...

I went to the orthopedist today. I didn't want to go anywhere as I was feeling bad. However, the White male doctor was really nice and said thoughtful things to me such as me being young. After being told I'm old by Black people all of the time, it felt good to hear this.

Am I the only one who misses the 90s? I remember at this time of the year, MTV would be having those Spring Break shows and I used to fantasize about going to one wearing a bikini, surrounded by hot White guys and being in the water. lol I thought about all of those catalogs I used to get back then from dELiA*s, MoxieGirl, Girlfriends LA, Alloy, Airshop and Just Nikki. And of course I had Seventeen, J14, Tiger Beat, 16, Teen and YM. Man... Those were the days. Back when everyone was alive...😢

It's like what I told Creole Bella; I don't have a man in my life. My Dad would watch movies with me, give me advice, go places with me(especially for my birthday- you can see glimpses of him in my older entries) and was always there for me. Now I have no one(other than my mother). I am left alone and broken. I don't think I'll ever heal.

3/19 I came across one of my old favorite songs from junior high.

I used to love this song and it feels good to be reunited with it twenty something years later.

3/21 I hate that this young lady's tweet was reported because it made a lot of sense, here's what I captured via my history:

"the reason why most straight men are so f＊cking ugly is because they know they’ll still get women regardless, so there’s no sense of urgency to not be ugly. no matter how fat, hairy, and ugly a heterosexual man is, he will still have a plethora of women pretending h

"are going to continue to be ugly. men have women out here risking their lives for bigger ＊sses, bigger t＊ts, and spending an obscene about of money on cosmetics and cosmetic surgery because men let it be known that there is a punishment for ugly women. women accept

"are and that’s why we’ve seen a steep decline in attractive men. all it takes is women having standards and we could get men who look like Paul Newman back."

She mentioned about how women are expected to accept 'dad bods' to not guilt men into getting into the gym. It reminds me of myself. I was guilted for many years for preferring fit and attractive men. This is why I've always had a preference for a certain type of men. They are usually in shape and kept up. Y'all know me, I ain't bending over for some man who is 5'5, weighs 125lbs with flimsy hands, flat butt, bad breath with a bird cage for a chest. It's not happening. One thing I liked about my old job were the fit men from this particular group I'm talking about and great butts to look at. I don't want no boney dude who smokes weed, no hobbies, no personality, no resources, feminine and drinks all the time. Give me a gorgeous fair skinned gentlemen who is over 6', in shape, healthy and absolutely gorgeous!

I loved this scene in Ma!

I've went ahead and deleted the numbers of my former coworkers. Nothing personal against some of them, I just want to wash my hands of any remnants of that job. From what I've told, it's gone from bad to worst since I've left. They should have treated their employees better and stopped firing good workers. That custodian who left got more heart than any of those still working there and complaining about it. He told me he wasn't going to be there this year, and he proved me right. They don't want people over thirty working there anyway and they're paying for it. As for the people I've deleted, it was just time to move on. Maybe it was personal with some. That twenty year old is annoying and pessimistic. I can see why she ended up in the situation she's in. Instead of her pontificating to me about making changes, she should focus on her own life and make some changes with her own life decisions. Another one who left last year, she was cool but time to move on. Then the one who was much older than me. Every time I would call, she would say 'who is this.' LOL It's hilarious. I'm not going to be initiate calling anyone when I have more important people in my life I care about. Then the one with the weird marriage who told me to go sleep with random guys to get pregnant. Whew chile, that city got some weird people! No wonder I always declined hanging out. So yeah... lol

3/22 Another full size skincare product I got for free!

Olay Regenerist Collagen Peptide 24 Face Moisturizer, Fragrance-Free, 1.7 Oz. Ya'll know I got the mini version of this because it's expensive.

3/26 This White guy stops to tell me that I have by far the best St. Patrick's Day outfit ever. lol I just felt like dressing up because I wasn't in the mood last week to do so.

I went to do some errands and I ran into one of my ex coworkers. She quit that job last year. I heard her voice and asked if that was her and it was. I explained to her what happened when she asked me if I was still there and that I hadn't worked since December. As mentioned on Twitter, she tells me if I talk to any of them, don't tell them she's there. I told her I don't talk to them, in fact I've deleted all of their numbers off my phone(as mentioned above). That's just how messed up that job was. Lots of people are leaving and if it wasn't for the Mexicans, I don't see this place surviving another year.