9/1 Yes, adapting to new times is really hard for me right now. So many things I got going on in my life that it's overwhelming at the moment. I definitely need a vacation away from the madness...😢
Today, I mowed the lawn and was damn near out of breath. I am so out of shape. I haven't exercised in months. Hopefully in therapy, I'll be able to go back to doing that. Just depends on what the doctor will tell me.
So anyway, I received my last package from Shein.
Despite the damage to the package, everything inside was fine. These businesses love giving jobs to anybody. Even a bum can work for USPS/UPS/Fedex.😒
9/2 So I had this dream last night where I was in this room with this Eurasian guy and his White mother. She was getting on my nerves as she was in front of our bed looking up at something in the ceiling. He wraps his arm around me, smiling and such. He was cute whoever he was. lol He had curly black hair, brown eyes and fair skin. Then we somehow ended up in my kitchen still being hugged up. I can't wait til I start traveling so I can interact with Asian guys and get away from these smelly, racist, country a＊＊ WM. I think this dream was inspired by me drooling at those Asian men on the Food Network! I think one of them was Filipino with those tattoos on him. Reminded me of this customer.
Today, I cashed the check that I received from Centrum regarding their hair, skin, nails gummies turning into a pile of goo. Now those gummies are $12. They only sent $9.74. Man, I put that sh＊t back into my bank. As much as I liked those gummies, I won't be repurchasing. I won't sway others from either. It did its purpose but there are cheaper options out there for me, and even more cheaper such as fruits, vegetables, water etc. You can Google or Bing products that have collagen and other anti aging benefits. Also, when I told the service lady about it helping me with alopecia, it actually hasn't. I've touched my spots and it's still not growing. I've accepted that it will never grow back. I won't do anything drastic such as cutting off my hair. Folks will have to deal with the way my hair looks now. I know I have. That goes for my family too. They better choose their words wisely. I've lost a lot this past year. Nice girl Xin is gone.
I don't mean to vent but let my story encourage you not to listen to demons in disguise. Never listen to people who don't care about you. Don't fall into peer pressure【having children before your time, giving a chance to men you don't like, altering your appearance to appease men who aren't going to change theirs and etc.】. Unhappy people want others unhappy.
9/10 Things have been so depressing that I decided to get up and do a bit of diy. I had these two tables I purchased last year that were on sale for $15. Initially I was going to use one of them to put my computer on. However, after putting it together, it's too small and while it could fit my all in one, I'll stick with the old desk I have.
Not bad eh? It was fun and it took my mind off of things.
9/11 My retro color black light nails with this really cute neon controller/coin purse. lol
9/12 I went to the grocery store with my mother. This White guy speaks to me which caught me off guard because they never say anything to me. I smiled and waved at him. I really needed that. Plus, when you go to certain businesses, the workers are unhappy【which I understand】 and they never speak to the customers. This place is different though.
Mom summoned me to the living room. I found out that we've been invited to this debutant like ball and he'll be sending us an invite in the email so he wanted my email address. I gave it to him. Mom told me she's going to wash my dress I wore last year in December. She seems really excited! LMAO Edit- as of Jan. 2023, we heard no more from this event. LMAO Then again, I didn't want to go to New Orleans. So yeah...
9/15 While I was out with Mom, she spotted this Asian chick at the local grocery store and asks where she came from. I turned to look at her too. She was hot; had brown skin, long black hair and nice legs. You can imagine the things I wanted to do with her. lol I would never object to having a gorgeous Asian or Eurasian girlfriend.😍
For some reason, I logged into an old email account to see that I was receiving notifications from an old FB account. So I logged in and guess who I see? Former close friends of mine. I don't speak to these chicks anymore, there was my ex best friend and others were folks I ceased from communicating with for ten years. I almost laughed when I saw them. But this proves my point, about how people will waste your damn time. Can't have people waiting for years and years to finally hang out, then nothing ever happens. I am glad I've moved on from these individuals. I am anti social now, only hang out with my Mom, nephew and brother. We could be in the same city and still won't hang out. I downloaded my old photos that I deleted years ago and closed that account.
9/16 I found out today that one of the women in my family has contracted C19. And she was around us yesterday. I am sipping on some detox tea🍵 from Dollar Tree. Here's what it looks like incase you want to pick it up yourselves.
Global Brands Herbal Helpers Detox Boost Tea
I am going to try to drink tea everyday now. I need to because I feel like my weight is trying to come back.🍵
9/17 I helped Mom mow the lawn again. Those damn ants🐜 got on my ankle and ugh... Gotsa be more careful... But at least I wasn't out of breath like I was earlier this month.
9/20 I went on some errands with my Mom and I'm glad to have used those Walmart gift cards I got as gifts from former coworkers. We don't even shop at Walmart anymore, we shop at more upper class stores now. I've noticed that while I was shopping, the atmosphere felt weird. Like I said, I only wanted to go there to get rid of those sh＊tty gift cards.
Got my full size freebie in the mail today.
GARNIER MICELLAR CLEANSING JELLY WATER WITH CHARCOAL, ALL-IN-1 PURIFYING
Tonight after using it, I absolutely love it!!
Also, here's a picture I took earlier. No, I do not sleep with makeup on...
9/22 Oh wow, my costume arrived in the mail!🤡
And I absolutely love it! This was the costume I wanted to purchase years ago but never got to. It's rare to find this costume anywhere.
9/23 Boy today was the time of deliveries. lol Got parcels from both USPS and UPS. Got my ribbons from Hobby Lobby, my supplies from another website and my ruler & ribbon from Michael's. When there's a sale, I take advantage of it. I was surprised I got these today because I went with the typical postage option. I ordered those items from Michael's yesterday.
9/24 Went to Hobby Lobby today. I hadn't stepped into this store in like over ten years... I thought these were awesome!
Let me say something. Just a small rant. I hate when people come up to me asking me for my help or venting to me about a problem. Once I give them a solution, they got excuses. I don't like being around people for this very reason. I don't even like to help people anymore. It's no mystery to why you almost never see me hanging out with anyone in my photos. People get on my nerves. With my weight lost, I worked really hard to lose that weight. It was a struggle for me, but I did it for myself. I wasn't happy with the way I look so I lost that weight. Went form 137 to 125. And there's folks asking me about my weight lost as well as my rear end but don't like the answers I give them. It's one thing I hate, lazy people with excuses. If you don't want to put in the work, then don't ask for advice.
Because it's one thing about people, they will waste your time and your life. I mean, so much time can go by and nothing is ever different. They never follow through with plans like I said above, got a thousand excuses. They'll have you waiting for something to happen and then poof, nothing ever does. Years go by and still nothing. Broken promises. Missed opportunities. Just plain unreliable. I remember there was a makeover I was suppose to attend many years ago. Never got to go because some loser who I called a friend decided not to go. I'm unable to let that go because it would have taken us somewhere but that's the past. I should get used to disappointments. I just have to learn not to allow it to continue. They make plans for everyone else and you end up getting their last minute which leads to nowhere. And once it's over with, they'll blame me for holding them back. No, you held yourself back. I was just stupid for following behind to begin with. I have my Mom. She never lets me down. I'm tired of losing so game over...
It's a lot going on on my end. I wish I could go on a long hiatus. Being in this house is depressing enough. Next month is going to be busy, especially with my online business. Glad my supplies arrived in time before October. If you've found this blog post of interest, feel free to comment, share and submit a donation. Au revoir~✌