Bonjour à tous~ Welcome to the Birthday & Christmas edition of this blog post! Click here to continue!
⚠This post contains a huge rant. So if you don't like racialized subjects, skip this post. .⚠
It's the first of the month and I'm already disappointed in some of the emails I've received from businesses. Looks like I won't be doing much this year for my birthday, which is fine. I don't want to go anywhere in this state. This place s＊cks and I'm tired of being here!
I love cashing out at the beginning of this month so I can start over the new year with building myself back up. Plus, I needed funds for my birthday goodies online! I get tired of reporting these people and going to Yelp for the bad service. I'm done and over this place.
12/2 I made the mistake of shopping in peasant Ville Walmart but it's my last time going there in that stupid city of Brusly. If you look at my Yelp, I've had issues with those businesses. The only time I'm going there is if someone else is purchasing for me. I just needed some fabric for my hair bows but I'm done. I don't need anymore fabric so Crapmart better not expect me to return to this location. I'll stick with getting my ribbon from AE.
Mom purchased these Christmas Leggings and this t-shirt from Old Navy.
She also purchased shirts for herself. And to think, she didn't even want to go in there.😌
I also went into Rainbow to find some dress pants. I purchased these pants, Tokyo shirt and wrap top along with some bras and panties(time to throw the old and worn out ones out!).
Edit- I couldn't find any pictures of the top or Tokyo shirt I purchased but I look forward to wearing them hopefully next year!
I went ahead and ordered my birthday gifts and samples from both Sephora, Ulta and Windsor . Killed two birds with one stone and I won't have go to either one in B.R.😁
BTW, I finally received my sample from Sunday Riley.
12/3 Another rainy day but I can't help but promote Lutein vitamins.👀 I have been having bad vision these past couple of days after having a terrible migraine last Saturday. I went back to taking this in conjunction with another vitamin, that blurriness went away. Please remember to take plenty of water. I wished I had taken these vitamins earlier in life, perhaps it would have improved my vision.👁👁 Also eat these foods:
1. Kale🥬
2. Spinach
3. Romaine Lettuce
4. Corn🌽
5. Bell Peppers🫑
6. Parsley
7. Pistachios🥜
8. Eggs🥚
Eyesight is something you don't want to lose! Sh＊t had me on the verge of a panic attack yesterday morning!!!😭😭
I'm not even going to ask why it's so hot in December... Why is my fan on??!!
12/7 Just one more day to my birthday. I had to go and get my free $50 Walmart gift card. Went to the casino with mom and won a little money, mostly what I had lost. I gave that card to Mom.
Oh and here's a selfie!
Hopefully next year, I'll have a guy to go places with. I don't mind my folks but it's time to make some changes. I went to Red Robin to find out that it's been closed since Nov. 5th. The saddest part about it, is that I had so many fond memories of my Dad being there. The lady at BJ's told me about this. I will miss Red Robin...😭
Let's talk about how DEAD the Mall of Louisiana is!! Like, where is everyone? It's beginning to look like The Mall of Cortana, by being deserted. Malls used to be fun but it's becoming a thing of the past because people don't want to deal with poor customer service and the hours s＊ck. Unfortunately, this isn't the 80s or 90s anymore where being at the mall was fun and the best way to meet people. Now, you have to watch your back from weirdos following you, trying to snatch you up along with what I said in the previous sentence.
On the bright side. I did not purchase anything as promised! Oh and here's my samples from Macy's!
Dolce & Gabbana Light Blue Pour Homme
Juicy Couture Oui Splash
Prada Paradoxe Eau De Parfum
Calvin Klein Defy Eau De Parfum
Juicy Couture Oui Splash
Prada Paradoxe Eau De Parfum
Calvin Klein Defy Eau De Parfum
Will be smelling like I got money again! LOL
I forgot to include what I got from Ulta!!!
TRULY Best Of Buns & Boobs Minis Kit and December Birthday Gift - BeautyBio Bright Eyes Depuffing and Brightening Eye Gels(got these free!)
And my birthday selfies!!
12/9 Today was a better day for me. I had to take care of some business(that nightmare job of mine is over with) then Mom and I went to Chili's.
We froze our ＊sses off!!😵💫
Don't kill me! I wasn't intended on purchasing anything but I couldn't resist these Hello Kitty folders!! Plus I had to get Creole Bella her wedding gifts. The cashier put the change with mine and I got the receipt. That's nice.
I went to Rotolo's to get a pizza. The biracial gal gave me a free drink.😊
I don't know what it is about me but folks treat me well during this week. I forgot to add that my family didn't wish me a happy birthday. And you know what? That's ok! It will make cutting them off all the more easier. I was telling Creole Bella yesterday that they will down right dedicate a post to whoever's birthday it is that day. But I get nothing. They'll try to be all nice to me and sh＊t. it's not big deal. As long as my money is remaining in my pocket, it's all good here.
And lastly, I ran into my old friend! I hadn't seen him in years! I was wondering where he was because I miss talking to him! Glad he's doing well. He asked me if I've seen other classmates, I said nope, I don't talk to them. I don't. When I see them, I keep walking and don't acknowledge them. The last classmate I ran into was coincidentally at my job ta Michael's. She had her head down in her phone and wouldn't even talk to me. I don't care about these people. I was fine when I left school and I'm fine without them. But he's been my friend since then and never judged me like the rest of them. It's good to have positive friends in your life instead of people lurking around just to keep up with you.
12/10 I received my parcel from Sephora~ Here's what was inside!
Peter Thomas Roth Mini Anti-Aging Cleansing Gel
Paula's Choice Do More For your Pores Kit
Tatcha Birthday Gift Set
First Aid Beauty KP Bump Eraser Body Scrub with 10% AHA
Kiehl's Since 1851 Powerful-Strength Dark Circle Reducing Vitamin C Eye Serum
Sunday Riley Good Genes All-In-One AHA Lactic Acid Treatment and Auto Correct Brightening + Depuffing Eye Cream for Dark Circles
First Aid Beauty Facial Radiance Pads
Herbivore Moon Fruit Serum + Nova Vitamin C Serum
KORA Organics Turmeric Glow Brightening Moisturizer
The only thing that was missing is the lip mask(which I didn't need) but they replaced it with Gucci Guilty! How did they know I love Gucci Guilty??? YES!!!
I remember earlier this month Mom wanting to go to a cabin. That sounds so much fun! The horror movie fanatic in me got me excited! lol😜 I wish she would want to go to North Louisiana. It's the only part of Louisiana along with West Louisiana, I enjoy being at.
Don't hit me for just now getting started on the hair bows!! I was going to get to them eventually! I was so busy getting fabric earlier this month for Valentine's Day accessories. I won't be working on them tomorrow because it's Sunday but business will resume on Monday!
12/13 I am so excited for the product tests, online communities and other freebies I get. I plan on doing more skincare reviews next month.
I got my booties from Windsor!
They are damaged but it's nothing I can't fix. I did get a partial refund because I didn't want to go through the hassle of not having these before Christmas.
12/14 Period started and I was feeling discomfort. Mom drags me out of the house to the casino. The machines weren't doing a damn thing. They were doing a drawing but I wasn't interested as my room is full as it is! This Black guy kept walking up giving everyone ten dollars after winning his butt off on the machines! I got twenty from him! Thank you sir!👍
I'm going to try and cut back on spending on clothes. I say this every freaking year! I have to be serious though. I mean I ask myself, why am I buying these clothes? I love to experiment with my appearance but quite frankly, these people down here are extremely boring and lack poise. I don't like old men and I don't like Warlocks(BM). So there really isn't a reason to dress up IF I wanted attention from me. I do it for myself but I feel something is missing. Every time I go through my closet, I think about a hot guy telling me how beautiful I look instead of attracting men I don't want. Next year is going to look interesting. At least I hope so.😕
12/16 This is how I feel about fat ugly b＊tches like you!
12/17 Mom asks me if I'm drinking tea this morning. Yes, I've been slacking off on my morning detox. It feels good to drink it again because I don't want to gain that weight back!😑
Finally got my sample from e.l.f.
12/18 So my darling mother decides to bring home plates of food. They all consisted of different foods so I had my pick of each plate. Here's what I picked out.
Tonight, I actually picked up my weights and exercised a bit. It felt good to do it. I am going to start doing this in between intervals of working online and on my projects.
12/19 🎵Tell me why🎵 I had a dream about Timothée Chalamet?
I thought this was cute. I am not sure why he popped up in my mind as I wasn't thinking about him. His new movie with the girl from Escape Room looks pretty cool. I was checking him out months ago when he was on Saturday Night Live. And he was hilarious!! He's also French like me! Which brings me to this question from a retweet yesterday!
You literally see a fine woman every day. How often do you see a fine ass man? Quickly!
— SHADONIS (@Shadonis) December 17, 2022
Excellent question. If you've been following me on twitter and on Youtube, You guys know I've been getting in ugly guys' ＊sses as of late. I have been loving the responses to this tweet, I even responded with Europe. My Faves:
- You got to move to Europe or something.
- It’s misogynistic how many ugly men there are
- Bruh, like never! And none of them come in 6’0 and above anymore
- This is why we really should hold men to the same standard they hold us. We allow them to be mid and just accept it. If more women talked about liking men who are actually attractive and face more attention to only hot guys things would change
I'm guessing that's why Timothée Chalamet popped up in my dream randomly. He's from France, multilingual and attractive(just want him to put on some weight though). A lot of these new actors on the scene are of European descent. I've been noticing this for years from 2013 when I was crushing on Tom Hiddleston. While I was working at my last job, I only saw a few exceptionally attractive men(White) which are the married guys I was crushing on at the time. The town I was working at had too many jerks of all different backgrounds that I didn't care who was attractive or not. I haven't seen an attractive guy since March of this year. MARCH! So you know what month this is? Close to the new year! I agree with the third tweet mentioning height! I've been paying attention to so many shorties running around. And those guys can be dangerous! Growing up, this warped my mind as I saw more attractive men on tv as opposed to real life. Even now, I can only name one American guy on tv who is attractive! Jake Andrich from Tiktok is the only guy I can name off bat, who isn't famous-famous and he's Canadian. People have subliminally called me shallow but it is what it is. I don't appreciate ugly men having the mitigated gall to call anyone ugly, let alone making fun of my features when they look like crap, get no attention from women unless they are the main ones initiating it. I'll be shallow. And lets also add in the recent news of these guys quitting work so they can live off women. This sh＊t is embarrassing but they're proud! Glad I'm not dating anyone like this!
"My theory of, why there are a lot of useless males is that women are shamed out of choosing the men they want. Women have to “wait” to be chosen, which is something I have a problem with because you may come across men you don’t want."
I'm glad I found her channel because I agree with her! Here's more from others:
lovelydeath04
Guard your Money: Don't let these men get a dime from you.
Guard your Heart: Don't let their lovebombing work.
Guard your Body: Don't let these men come near you nor c＊m inside you.
Guard your Home: Don't let these men inside your home.
Guard your Life: It's either them or you.
lay
I've been getting to know men from other countries....the experience is way better than American men...especially American black men
CURATED VIBES
This is exactly why more women are less interested in relationships and marriage. I can't imagine working my ＊ss off to have a man come live on my dime. This is a great time for women to level all the way up, earn as much as you can, save and MOVE far away from the states. It's dangerous
A Vibe Called Yes™
That moment when you're like, "Damn, is there any hope in dating for women?" I am visibly seeing men becoming angrier. Lord, it's giving Handmade's Tail, dystopian vibes. Ima get my Nina, self-defense, financial independence, and everything else but NO ONE will know when I or if I have it. I wanna look however poor looks but wealthy in secret.
Truth hurts...
I picked up on their angry vibe right before the pandemic. They really hate to see you unattached with no kids moving freely with ease in every day life. Their blood boils when they see you doing simple things like buying a home, appliances, cars etc....
Vixie Rain
Young ladies reading this (18 +), do NOT let these broads online, in your private group chats or social media groups that measure their life's success on getting a man to take care of them convince you that you shouldn't have ambition, goals or your dreams. You see every week or month stats being shared publicly on how men in North American societies are choosing the path of failure. Take CARE of YOU. I'm not saying don't pair/partner with a man, but don't eff around and find out simply because other women are gaslighting you.
Y'all thought I was bullsh＊tting about the late Paul Newman! Look here!
I thought these photos were taken recently with a new actor! These images are from the 60s!! I would post photos of my own father from that time! Daddy was handsome no wonder my mom was fighting b＊tches over him. LMAO!!
I put some miles into my accounts! Woohoo! Next month, I will repost my blog post where you can make money and miles online! This is so worth it! I mean I've already qualified for one free trip. I just need someone to travel with me!
Oh yeah, I received my freebie of the day!
Eucerin Sun Sensitive Tinted Mineral Face Sunscreen Lotion SPF 35- I should start wearing sun screen just around the house for as much products I have. lol
12/20 Freebie of the day!
I am so ashamed to admit that I just now started on the hair bows tonight. The thing is, they are almost finished because I'm like fast but they're not going to be done in time for Christmas for folks online to purchase. Sorry. Just haven't been feeling good and been freezing my balls off in this sh＊tty ＊ss state!
12/22 Now, I had a dream last night with Nicholas Hoult in it! It was about zombies. We were running with these people and ran inside of this diner. He sits in a chair, turns around and says, come sit in this chair with me Lin. So I sit in the chair with him as he's talking and spinning a bit in the chair. lol So cute!!
Anyways, finished with the hair bows but it's almost Christmas. I'm going to post them anyway. I guess I will begin on the Valentine hair bows next month. I was telling my mother that I need to do this more often, it's therapeutic for me. Keeps my mind off of things. I've said this before that I miss doing the things I used to love like video games, drawing and now crafts. Ever since I lead astray from those, depression kicked back in.
12/23 I was checking my AA email to see that two interesting cities in another country popped up in it: Amsterdam, Netherlands and Frankfort, Germany. If those places weren't overran by scammers and other foreigners, I could see myself going to either places. I remember one of my brothers wanting to go to Amsterdam.
12/24 Today, my munchkin came over today and I brought my hair bows to the living room. Her dad told her to pick 0ut two of them. I should have known, she was going to pick the one with the gingerbread man and the glow in the dark candy with bells inside. And he paid for them! Early Christmas cash for me!
So what I done this evening, was look for that keyboard that I've been looking for, for YEARS! My Dad didn't want to purchase it for me because, well, I already have a keyboard. 😂 I still have it, it's in my garage with the other one. I really wanted to this because it had beats on it that I like. I found it and waiting on a good offer so I can purchase it. I have no room to put it but I've got to have this keyboard!!!!
12/25 Merry Christmas to y'all~ I was in my room watching podcasts and daydreaming about what I really want. I'm missing my Dad also. I really have no reason to be among the living today.
"Who else is tired of the least married women up in other women’s business!!" I am! That's why in the new year, these b＊tches are going on N＊gnore!
Anyways, I didn't get to dress up because it was like 20+ degrees here. Sad. Maybe next year...😖
12/28 My step brother came bearing gifts!🍫
I haven't had chocolate in a while, other than eating a KitKat occasionally. I also love that it's all chocolate. Not only will my insides love it but so will my skin.
Y'all remember back in 2012, when I received candy and they misspelled my name? I looked on the back of the chocolate to see that once again, ten years later, they misspelled it again!😂
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Can we please talk about how beautiful Europe looks during the Winter? Like wow!
Anyways, I have been enjoying the gameplay of these games on Youtube this year. Here's my list!
Video Game Faves Of The Year!
Blair Witch
Wolfenstein series(throwback)
Clive Barker's Undying(throwback)
Daymare 1998
The Thing(throwback)
ParanormalHK
암전: Blackout
The Conjuring House
Apparition
Ghostwire Tokyo
Zombi
ALIENS VS PREDATOR
ALIENS COLONIAL MARINES
Ashes 2063
PREDATOR CONCRETE JUNGLE
Terrordrome: Rise of the Boogeymen
Street Fighter 5
DOOM ETERNAL
The Quarry
Dead Space 3
Wolfenstein series(throwback)
Clive Barker's Undying(throwback)
Daymare 1998
The Thing(throwback)
ParanormalHK
암전: Blackout
The Conjuring House
Apparition
Ghostwire Tokyo
Zombi
ALIENS VS PREDATOR
ALIENS COLONIAL MARINES
Ashes 2063
PREDATOR CONCRETE JUNGLE
Terrordrome: Rise of the Boogeymen
Street Fighter 5
DOOM ETERNAL
The Quarry
Dead Space 3
This list consists of a lot of throwbacks but still great games anyway! Really enjoyed them!
I have to say that this year was quite the eye opener for me. I got to see who really cared about me and who didn't. Next year, you won't see me communicating with these people ever again. The house I own is mine and if they come in here disrespecting me, I will toss their ＊sses OUT! Next month, I will be cleaning up my social media following list. I think this could be hindering me from appearing in the algorithm. I was looking at my December blog post from 2020 about how sure I was to keep that job I had. I didn't realize everything was going to come to this point. I'm glad that some of these toxic Mephistos have disappeared over(for some reason, they won't unfollow me) the months. It's great not having a lot of people to talk to, and have brought it down to just a handful. I never wanted a lot of friends. Glad to report I haven't made a single new friend this year. I will go into the new year still doing this practice. Too many people dwelling on the past and darting at people's flaws while their own backyard is dirty. And again with the pushing their opinions me. I won't drag that out, you guys got the point earlier. Just glad they are out of my life. As I've mentioned months ago, people will waste your time. But instead of being bitter about it, in return, I ended up wasting theirs, either by blocking/deleting their numbers or just not going through with their plans. People have tried to play with my intelligence, and ended up getting played. All of this sh＊t is going to change next year. I am not going to be as nice and generous as I used to be. It's thankless especially when they'll turn around and start running their mouths.
Anyways, this is all for this month and final blog post of the year! I hope you all enjoyed my end of the year rant! If you've found this blog post of interest, feel free to share, comment and donate. Jeulgeoun haru bonaeseyo(have a nice day in korean)~✌