Silver Shadows

 Bonjour a-tous~ Welcome to the November 2023 version of this blog post.

I know you guys are wondering what happened at this job. Well, I quit.🤷🏾‍♀️ I didn't tell them. I just didn't show up. I got tired of the bullsh＊t, they were working me like a slave and I'm sick of them draining the life out of me. Don't go nowhere where you're not appreciated and all they give you is a pat on your head, a smile on their face until your back is turned. I feel like I made the right decision. I see others getting accolades while I got nothing but a crappy check and their microaggressions. Today was the last straw for me. What got me, was my Dad's favorite song being played while I sat down, in the breakroom. When I got home, I was groaning from being in pain, I was limping. An all too familiar experience I had, when I was working at my last job. I was overworked and my body just shut down. Their energy also affected my body.

I did purchase my last stuff from that job, but I am done. I won't bother posting photos of the stuff, they'll show up when I post selfies. Mostly witchcraft, Killer Klowns From Outer Space, Freddy Krueger, Monster High(for my kiddo), Jason Voorhees and Tarot.

Anyways... OK this image looks amazing!!

11/2 I didn't go to work today! I was able to take care of the business I love and get my customers their products.📦

11/3 It is day number two of me ghosting those weirdos. But what got me, is why did this scruffy looking White dude from the job send me a friend request?😵‍💫 I don't like the White guys down here, y'all are smelly, cheap, broke and ugly. It will sit in pending.😷

Got to be Eastern European and look like this to be on my friends' list. lmao I saw more attractive Asian and half Asian guys at that job than White ones. And also let me add, I did look up the Leon Kennedy(Eduard Badaluta) and had no idea the face model was getting harassed online(just like the chick from The Last of Us). Well, from working where I was, I can tell you they were just jealous because men from overseas(in particular in Eastern European countries) tend to put more effort into their appearance than your typical American White guy(especially down South). And here you are with your beautiful skin, perfect features, and height who managed to get to be apart of not one, but two video games of the same character. Because you have a unique look that we don't see in this country anymore. They're used to seeing ugly, horribly aging(scrotom neck having), smelly men who have poor manners and treat women like trash, especially if she's Black. I don't need to expound much longer as I have a video on my Patreon I made months ago about something similar.

11/4 Ever since I've been home, I have been working nonstop at home, even doing errands for my beloved mother. I don't know where I'd be without her. She's been looking after me ever since I ghosted that job. I just wish my Pops was still here. I had a dream about him. Woke up with tears in my eyes.😭

Well lookie here...

Looks like I'm back to being a skincare junkie. Don't worry, I am backing it up with improving my ritual as well. The brands are Global Beauty and B-Pure.

11/5 I have to say, it feels damn good to go back to reading.📚 I hadn't touched my books in a month or so. It's all research for me but learning is something I am always open to doing. I am almost finished with at least two of the books.

11/6 It's Monday and it's a busy day today. Making cash that is, advertising my new products at my store, as well as the sold out items.

On 10/24, when I shipped off my products to my customers, I spotted this stamp and decided to purchase it.

Chief Standing Bear~

11/9 This blog may be short like many others. I have to withhold a lot of things I have to say on here because I have a couple of people snooping around on my platforms. I am not sure what they are looking for, I guess so they can tell themselves how much they have it better than me, which we all know is a lie. I wouldn't trade places with any of them. I have my issues going on and not trying to be anyone I'm not to make others 'jealous.' No thanks. I know how to be humble and only remind those who have a problem with me, that they have problems of their own and their attempts to belittle me will only make themselves look like jack＊sses. I'm not even thinking about these people but here they are. Their lives don't fascinate me, but again, here they are. Before you laugh at me, I'm laughing right at you. What you see in the mirror will remind you of your own failures.🖕🏾

But I do want to get into the ＊ss of this lying, weak f＊cker on my Facebook list. That's why I have a Patreon. lol😁

I would like to discuss how my hair has grown. I have a lot of new growth I hadn't noticed since yesterday. I mean, a full afro! I can't wait to see how my hair looks after I straighten it.

Y'all  remember my aviators?🕶️ The gold ones, not the silver ones. Well, they are missing. I haven't seen those things since August. I don't know if I lost them at work but I have a feeling they are somewhere in the house. Then again, who knows? I got them from Walmart years ago, I'll wait til next year to grab another one or two. I still can't find my rainbow ring from my Pride photos. Just been losing a lot of sh＊t as of late.

11/10 Looks that job is finally done with. I have no regrets working there. I just hated the folks I was around. I was able to dress the way I wanted, again, just hated the constant questions and the microaggressions. Just like the previous job, my body gave out on me. Where do I go from here? Who knows. I am still working on my expose on them, just like I need to do one on the last job. What I really learned, is being careful what I wish for. I learned that it's just as bad working under White people as it is under Blacks. Also keeping people off my social media pages. I won't be updating that Facebook anymore so they can see themselves off my page if they wish. My Patreon is a lot more interesting knowing that folks can't go snooping around on there like they do on here, FB, IG and etc. But in the end, thanks for the tea for me to spill right on there.

I'm sorry but K＊ke should have been like this

LMAO This chick had the likes of Chr1s 3v@n$ and T1m0thy Ch@m3l3tt3 at her feet and this is who she gets knocked up by?🙄

Anyways, here's what I bought from Sally Beauty Supply website.

Wellness Therapy Hair Elixir Oil, Proclaim Color & Heat Protection Glossing Polish, Smooth Solutions by ion Keratin Smoothing Masque, Smooth Solutions by ion Keratin Heat Styling Cream, Strength 'n Silk by Silk Elements Thermal Silk Styler, BaBylissPRO Prima Titanium Flat Iron 1 Inch

I hope my hair reacts well to these products.

I thought this was cute. lmao at homeboys in the back!😂

11/11 I went through my Pop's stuff and came across this book📙 he purchased back in the 80s.

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Satan : His Psychotherapy and Cure by the Unfortunate Dr. Kassler by Jeremy Leven (1982, Hardcover)

I did read some of it a long time ago. I'm going to put it back though. I discovered they had made a movie about it with Eric La Salle in it.

11/12

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Riffelalp Resort in Zermatt, Switzerland

Is it me or is this place calling my muthaf＊cking name??? Where passport gang at?? I need to get mine asap.

11/13 I've been wanting to discuss the whole subject of 'reaching out' to people. Apparently, I didn't learn my lesson from last years' ordeal with a former 'friend' of mine. I haven't contacted anyone recently really but it's just something I have been thinking about. This is why I have a cell phone now. I've had people contact me through my old house phone number randomly out of the blue after watching anime on tv one night. Yeah, silly right? Because apparently, I am only remembered for loving anime and nothing else... It's actually sad. I've had an abundance of people in my life who contribute nothing to it, other than just being there. Should I just retire from all social media? Facebook and Instagram to be specific. I don't see the point in having it anymore. Most people already have my cell phone number, I just can't text anymore though. Hell, my Mom is on board with only being contacted through her cell phone. If folks don't have it, that's their ＊ss. lol

Now that it's November... It's Gyaru fashion month! I've always enjoyed wearing my Gyaru clothes, especially around the colder months. Why? Because most of those clothes are LONG SLEEVED! LMAO Those box of clothes were mostly long sleeved.

11/14 I caught this movie entitled The Last Duel on FX. I've never heard of this movie. I liked one particular scene in it which I can't post on here because I'll get that warning(you know). Even though it's a messed up scene, it was hot to me.

11/15 Mom made vegetables today. I declined at first until she guilted me with 'Lin, you haven't had vegetables in a while.' And she's right. So I went ahead and ate some. I really needed it and need to eat it more.🥬

I got my final pay from that job. Too bad it's going to be all gone because I have my birthday coming up soon! lol

11/16 OK so this White country singer named M＊tt St＊ller is trying to shoot his shot at M＊g Th＊e St＊llion. Like wow! He's trying to make her an honest woman and she could be the next Ev＊! Make it happen girl!😍

Here's what I purchase from Rainbow and received in the mail today!

I thoughts this was so cute! But had no idea that the chest area is also mesh! I'll figure it out!

Very adorable, gyaru style top! And it's already sold out!

This was actually the top I wanted months ago with the old shirt that looks similar. Dang, and it's already sold out!

I miss wearing platform heels so I had to get them since my old ones are worn out.

I thought these were so cute and would go great with that top at the top.

These were marked down so I had to get them. Two of them is for my birthday.

My Mom was like 'I saw a robe at the store that I wanted to get for you but it was too short.' I was like 'Mooooooom!!' She says 'what? I want to get you a LONG robe!'

11/17 I am still reading my books. I managed to finish one of them. I am contemplating selling it or not. It is a good book and I've learned so much. I reading my H.P. Lovecraft book. I missed out on reading it last month while working that crappy job. I am a chapter away from reading the Re-animator. 

I can't wait! I've been wanting to watch this movie one day!📼💉

11/19 I've been shopping online these past couple of days. It's mainly stuff I really need. I am trying to 'glam' myself up for my birthday. Not trying to impress no damn body! I even got some stuff for Mom. I feel like she deserves it.😊

11/20 I swear Sam's Club has the best samples! 

I tried the sample from days ago(I am just trying it now because I am currently sick). The medium plate is fried steak with cheesy potatoes. The other was cream cheese blended with this seasoning. The big plate is pizza that I purchased. lol🍕

I can see myself making some fire ＊ss burgers with them. Along with chicken. I need to check out their other seasonings as well.

11/21 I've noticed that since I've been sick, I've lost weight! Oh no! I am doing better now but sh＊t, I don't want to be super skinny. Being too thin will age you and have you looking like those ugly White b＊tches I used to work with. lol Anyways, I won't be eating from Circle K anymore. Will stick to their beverages.

11/22 I had a dream that I picked up a bouquet of flowers💐 from the ground from this wedding of about twelve people in my backyard(don't ask). But, there was something interesting about the hue of these flowers. So I looked up the meaning of each flower.

In my dream, they all looked like Aster and Gerbera daisies~

Lets get spiritual, spiritual...

Although red flowers are most commonly associated with feelings of true love and passion, they can also be used to convey respect, desire, and courage.

The color yellow is primarily associated with spreading happiness and joy; however, it is also the ideal color for symbolizing friendship. With their bright hue and cheery personality, yellow flowers can be used to better someone’s day and increase the positive energy in a room. 

Similar to red flowers, pink flowers have also grown to be a symbol of love, though they can also mean happiness, gentleness, and femininity 

Orange flowers are bright and bold, and, thus, they are known to symbolize feelings of excitement and enthusiasm. 

Traditionally used in bridal bouquets or during memorial services, white flowers range in meaning from purity and innocence to sympathy. 

I just thought this was interesting.🤔

NOW, lets talk fashion! What I've been noticing in these online stores, is that the theme this year, seems to be mesh and rhinestone. Even with the item you see above from Rainbow, it's mesh and rhinestone. You can see brands such as Windsor, Fashion Nova, Rainbow and etc. It's all mesh and rhinestone. I do tend to wear silver and sometimes gold around this time of the year as well.

Mom brought this dressing from her home city. I bit into that sh＊t and there was a bone in it. Come on now.😩 I was just food poisoned days ago and now this? I don't like other people's cooking, I prefer my own or Mom's.

11/23 Happy Thanksgiving Pilgrim! What I did most of the day? Making money online! What do you think?!

So last night, I read the Re-animator story(some of it) and boy, it's so spooky and fascinating. Making me want to watch the movie!

11/24 Here's my items from Ulta.

Tree Hut Iced Coffee Shea Sugar Scrub, Curlsmith Bond Curl Rehab Salve, 

It's A 10 Miracle Leave-In Product, Tree Hut Tropic Glow Bare Moisturizing Shave Oil, and It's A 10 Miracle Leave-In Conditioner Plus Keratin

And a free gift!

Ulta Beauty Collection

Free 8 Piece Lilac Gift Bag with $60 purchase

I have enough lip-gloss so I'll be giving them to my Mom.

Tonight, I decided to check out this video game entitled Slender The Arrival.

I've never heard of it but since I recognize the name from a Creepypasta, I thought I'd check it out. 

The Slender Man (also spelled Slenderman) is a fictional supernatural character that originated as a creepypasta Internet meme created by Something Awful forum user Eric Knudsen (also known as "Victor Surge") in 2009.[1] He is depicted as a thin, unnaturally tall humanoid with a featureless white head and face, wearing a black suit.

Stories of the Slender Man commonly feature his stalking, abducting, or traumatizing people, particularly children.[2] The Slender Man has become a pop culture icon, although he is not confined to a single narrative but appears in many disparate works of fiction, typically composed online.

It was very interesting and definitely got me wanting to delve into the next subject of my research, which is the extraterrestrial.

11/25 And the final purchase of the month are these goodies from Victoria's Secret.

A bit dark for my skin tone but it will come in handy!

I love the color!! It was super cheap so I had to get it! It's now sold out!

I didn't realize these were for 'tweens'. LMAO But they fit and match my skin tone!

I purchased more pasties because the ones from Windsor, I can see my n1ppl3s right through them! o_0 I think these will come in handy when I wear certain tops.

As this month is coming to an end, I'd like to say that I'm probably going to once again, give up on social media. I just want to use my time online making money, hence why I've moved rants to there. I give away too much free content and I feel like it's all in vain. I'd rather be compensated for my time, that includes this blog as well. I want to focus more on blogging, vlogging and my online business. Tiktok pays so I may look into doing that.

11/29 My Doordash goodies arrived today from Walgreens!

Soap & Glory The Glorious Five Bath Gift Set, Soap & Glory Play a Little Pink Original Pink, Soap & Glory Perfect Calm-Ony Gift Set and Soap & Glory A Little Glory Gift Set

And whew, do they smell good!!! I've been wanting to purchase this brand for years, because I've always seen it in Walgreens, and sometimes in Walmart. I love the vintage look to them. They also have a makeup collection, and y'all know me, no more makeup. Already have a bin full of them and had to give some away to Mom. Since I have duplicates, I gave some of this stuff to Mom.

11/30 Last night, I watched some of that movie Oppenheimer. I will watch the rest later on. This movie is very interesting and had some of my old crushes in it(Cillian Murphy and Josh Hartnett). It definitely got me wanting to brush up on history and philosophy. Which is why I had to look for my old book weeks ago.

I checked out that chick's Tiktok's about not moving to Texas. One of my relatives went there for Thanksgiving. I only want to go to Texas to vacation, not to live. If I wanted to move from down here, it would be somewhere Northwest. I'm guessing it's similar to Louisiana with tricking people with the low prices on their houses, only to see that this state is boring and the people are extremely ignorant. I know a lot of people from California moved to Texas, I found this out from that chick I no longer talk to, last year. When I went there in 2018, I noticed with the way the women dressed, that they were from California. Southern women don't really dress like that, in fact, they are some of the worst dressers ever. I didn't get a 'conservative' vibe from that place, it felt and LOOKED very liberal. I think both states are trying to attract the rich which explains why so many people from Hollywood are leaving California and moving to Nevada, the East coast, and even Texas. Even Shaq has a house down here. Kudos to those moving West. What worries me is how cold it gets on that side. I am a migraine sufferer and can't handle too much heat or cold weather.😞

And this concludes with this post. I am looking forward to next month as it is my birthday month! I don't really plan on spending a lot of money in that crappy city, just going for my free stuff and keeping it pushing. I have gift cards so I may throw a bone at them, depending on the service I receive. If you've found this post of use, feel free to comment, share, or submit a donation. Au revoir~✌