Bonne année 2024🍾🎉🥂

Bonne année à tous ! 2024 is here! Click here to continue reading!

I am so happy to waking up peacefully this morning. These muthaf＊ckas with these firecrackers, as well, as guns were getting on our damn nerves! And every year, I have to remind folks how they have no life outside of being total menaces, BUT, I digress.🙄

I've cashed out on all websites today because it's time for a fresh new start. If you want to know how to make money online, click here! It's absolutely free!

Here's my New Years ritual~

I guess will start on the New Years Resolutions for 2024!!

I am ashamed to admit that I have not been exercising and shame on me. I need to get back into it. The reason I've been feeling down, is probably due to lack of exercise.🏋🏾‍♀️
Making money is the goal!💰🤑 That is all! I will also try to spend less and save more.
I am done with Instagram and Facebook. I still have business pages on both to manage. I have people on both who don't even talk to me. I am not about to keep posting and they could care less about what's going on in my life. I am being serious this time. I hope they don't think they are going to call me or write letters to my house, hoping I'll response. The old Xin would have, the new one, isn't. I am going to toss your letters in the trash, and I am going to hang up in your face. Move on and stop living in the past! That past me is not the new me of today. Whatever version of me you know, isn't the version of me today. And let me add in, I don't need nobody trying to keep up with me. As mentioned last year, my cell phone is the only way they can contact me now.
I don't need to mention love and travel so I will skip this part.
I hadn't made a friend in years. Those people from that job were never my friends. I don't even know why they're still on my Facebook friends list. I haven't updates since November(to some, since October). I'm not interested in having a lot of friends, only keeping people in my life who actually want to be here. Which is why I said earlier, I am cutting the umbilical cord on staying connected to people who don't care about me.
It's January and there's more strange weather. It's 60° and partly sunny⛅. It still feels cool. I said this last year.
My books? I plan on continuing and starting on them this year. Still researching and will keep you guys updated on this! If you are interested in the books I'm reading, you can buy them here!
Like I said last year, I won't be generous anymore. I did while working that job months ago, but I won't anymore. What I mean by this, is that I allowed them to take advantage of my availability. I'm not worried about chit chatting because these clowns at these jobs are just that, clowns. They are not worth my kindness(unless they are kind first). It's like no matter how old or young they are, they are childish. Just do your job and off I will go. And they wonder why I never give them good reviews or tips. You would think if they work on their people skills, they might get a tip. No one cares about your problems, go get therapy, and choose better(sometime it's always a man behind why these women are miserable but they are their own worst enemies). I don't care about their problems, just do your f＊cking job! Like I said in the last post, I am not apologizing to nobody for who I am. I don't like to smile because I don't like displaying weakness to demons. I have a deep, monotonous voice and a resting b＊tch face that I can't help. It doesn't mean I'm a bad person. People who smile in your face, are the ones you have to watch out for the most. Working in customer service, I've witnessed people do a whole 180 from kindness to a demon. Hell, I've seen this in my childhood with teachers and my peers. I don't care about a smile, I don't care about anyone speaking to me. What I want people to do, is stay out of my face and my way. It's that simple. And just like last year, people with the drama but I stay out of it. Too focused on making this money and looking good to care about the latest gossip. And also, I'm not one of those people who expects nothing in return for what I do. This is why so many Black women end up dying early or look ugly from helping everybody and not getting anything in return. All the 'good' I did last year, put me at a job where I got labelled 'strange' for simply existing. Just like the job previously, got called 'crazy' for my efforts. You don't smile, I hate you. You don't speak, I hate you. It's thankless which is why I'm only looking out for myself.
I was going to make this blog about reviews. However, with Patreon, I've decided to do reviews there. I just want to be compensated for my work.
I plan to get more into photography.📸 And you should as well by purchasing my cameras and camera stuff! Click here!
Taking better care of my health, skin and hair. This is also one of my main goals.
Will still try to cut back on my spending(unless it's for my birthday which is at the end of the year).
Will cut back on these survey websites. I want to focus more on gambling and online business. I'll still have those accounts open but only for cashback offers.
I'm going to try to get back to my Hands-On projects.🎀
Finally renounced being Black. F＊ck that community but I love my Black mama!

Word of advice- avoid trashy men, dump trashy friends and take your damn vitamins!

And I think this is all. Not much to add to it.

I found the New Years celebration stuff I purchased years ago that I gave to Mom. I'm glad they don't have the year on them so they are reusable.

It's the new year, and since I've completed a few things, I am going to start watching some more documentaries. I will be watching a spanking new Jeffrey Dahmer documentary entitled ~Freddy Krueger voice~ Fresh Meat: Killing Dahmer. I will be doing a review on this too.

1/2 Something caught my eye today: Gen Z-ero Ageing Worse than Millennials LOL! LMAO🤣🤣🤣 It's true. When you got muthaf＊ckas young enough to be your kids asking you how you take care of your skin instead of the other way around, something is wrong. They will call you old yet in their 20s, they already look 40. I just wanted to continue with the pettiness.

1/3 We went to Rouses and my step sister got me some sweet ole Halloween cookies.🦇🎃 I picked up two Halloween treat bags that was only 40 cents!! I ended up getting my dollar back at the casino. lol

Oh yeah and I picked up these cold pressed drinks!

Blood Orange🍊 and Strawberry Lemonade🍓🍋~

1/4 I learned today that my family member who is in another part of La. is planning on moving there. I said Godspeed! I'm actually happy for her! There isn't a damn thing going on in S.E. Louisiana but boring weather and ignorant people. I look forward to seeing her soon to see how she's doing. At least she's somewhere where she can start over with a fresh new life and environment. At least they're friendlier there than in South Louisiana. I want this to inspire me to get off my ＊ss and move around.

I'm not even gone ask why my sealed calendar looks like an album. lmao

1/5 I uploaded a video for Patreon via Youtube. I haven't uploaded a video on YT in six months!

@missede96

20 hours ago

I can’t stand this new wave of going 50/50 just to have a man, chasing cute guys for their looks, driving 45 minuets to meet a man, forcing marriage and approaching men first. It’s defying every rule and standard we need and that’s why there are so many divorces today.

@TheKitwakening919

18 hours ago

So true. Too many men in their sassy girl era and too many desperate women entertaining them

@eeahdesigns4236

11 hours ago

This insight is well needed. As a mature woman ladies, guard yourself and have high standards. If you need to stay single because majority of these males won't court you, pay a dowry, and provide, then be content with your singleness. Don't get trapped in a struggle love marriage, especially with kids.

I plan on actually tackling(no offense to that Karen who got tackled by that dude LMAO And I'm not sorry for laughing at the clip after what I had to go through at my last job to the point where I didn't return. These racist smart mouth b＊tches need to get tackled on! But I digress...) this subject on Patreon real soon.

I tried that Strawberry lemonade drink and omg it's so good!! I need more!!

1/6 I've returned to my reading/research. Let the horrible nightmares commence.😵‍💫

1/10 Looks like a family member is getting married soon. Yes, your Fabulousness will be there.

No way I'm passing up food and a slice of cake.

1/11 I looked into my inbox to see that I've won an Amazon gift card. My username was pulled. I've been apart of that panel for years and never won anything from them. Thanks!

St. Maarten

This place looks refreshing!

1/15 I've been depressed this entire week. As I mentioned on Twitter, some old wounds were opened when I saw someone I am following flooding the time line over a heart break. I told my mother I am miserable and she asks why. I just feel like I'm nothing without my Dad. I wish I could ask him why are things happening to me, and not getting better. No matter how hard I try. People who don't talk to me or do anything for me, they are asking me stupid questions about products I use as if it would work for them. No, this person wants this for their teenage grand daughter. The kid just needs to lose weight and exercise. Ask any of these fit White girls with booties how they got it? Some would say it's natural, the rest would say it's from exercising. I just want these people to leave me alone because trust me, I've been through what that girl is going through. I believe she is probably getting bullied by her grandmother, she is probably the one telling her 'if you want an ＊ss, you should ask Xin.' Like wtf? Last time I checked, exercise helped me with the butt I have. I didn't start using creams til these past six years. That teenager is a Black girl, and it's unfair how in that toxic cultmunity, they can't just be little girls! Who is she trying to impress with a butt? You think those 'boys' are going to like you more? No they're not, they are just going to use you for s＊x, knock you up and leave you. There's a reason why I'm still single. Because I know what these guys want. They go out here dating, marrying, knocking up wh＊res and got the nerve to come up in my face with baggage and kids! You got me all the way f＊cked up! And shame on this tw＊t having the nerve to ask me such a ludicrous question, as if I was going to tell you the cream that actually does work. Those creams are for eliminating STRETCH MARKS. Even if it's for butt lifting, you are going to have to exercise, to maintain that shape! You need to encourage her to work on her weight and her self esteem. But it's too late because I feel like she has something to do with why this kid wants an ＊ss. I wasn't even thinking about my butt as a teenager. It was before then, when family members and classmates made fun of my body. I am still relatively skinny, when I was younger, I was 90 pounds. I am only 119 currently. So really isn't a big change to my body. I just don't believe in changing your looks to impress men who don't like you. They pick girls like you when they are old, washed up, and broken from the harlots they engaged with dragging them to hell and back. I don't feel sorry for them. I am not a pick me but I am not a damn clean up woman either! Nerdy dudes growing up to attract former cheerleaders who were like 'ew get away from me, you're gross!' I don't understand it but I don't care. I just don't appreciate those guys violating my space with their fake 'interest' in me. I know a reject when I hear and see one. Hold your head up, kid and anyone else!

1/17 And we're back. We went through a freeze🥶🥶🥶 and had no internet. When it came back on, I went to do my errands and did a small shopping trip. It's been so depressing where I am. I don't like the New Years. It's ok at first, but once you realize the people you've lost, it becomes painful.

I went to the bank as part of my errands and noticed the White chick who I reported last year, speaking and asking me how my Christmas was. I said it was ok and how was yours, I forgot what she said and quite frankly, who cares? lol At least she eased up, even though I ain't buying it. I've grown up around these chicks, and learned about them from my last job, that it's all fake. I don't like reporting people but if you hate your job, then get another position at the bank. And their anger all stems from their poor choices in men and they take it out on other women. Even though I hated the folks at my last job, I still spoke to the customers and did my job until I couldn't take it anymore. But some lames don't know how to fake it. Again, that's why they don't get tips from the Fabulous 1.💋

I checked my FB to see a message from my step brother telling me to call him. So I did. I had no internet so I wasn't able to see the message. We chatted for a minute. My brothers are the only siblings I talk to. I'm used to talking to my Dad all the time and since he's no longer here, I don't have anyone to talk to as far as family and local friends are concerned.

1/18 I received my sample from L'oreal. The is the first freebie of the month!

It is L'oreal Paris Midnight Cream. #GiftedbyLorealParis

1/20 Here's my sample from Cerave.

During these freezing times, it's best to have a good, moisturizing lotion and ChapStick. You got that, you dusty ＊ss White chicks down south??😷

1/21 I am debating on if I should go on a hiatus. I've really been down these past few weeks, and it doesn't look like I'm going to be doing any better. I think abandoning IG and FB pages really helped me some. Now, the people who claimed were cool with me, can't keep up with what's going on in my life. As if they cared anyway. Some of them have abandoned their own pages, made new ones or use other social media websites that I'm not going to bother joining. When you look back at the real people you've lost, you really feel how alone you truly are. The people who were rooting for you, the people who had your back when others turned theirs on you. And you're stuck with people who take you for granted, like you'll always be there no matter how many times they abandon you. I don't think people understand or care...

Why Do People Go From Being The Nicest Person Ever To Having The Coldest Hearts?

Because we get tired of riding for people who are just a bunch of narcissistic losers. The ones who aren't man or woman enough to just simply cut ties with you and have you worried something is wrong. I reserve my kindness for those who deserve it.

Daily Poll

Would you rather have a rewind button for your life or a fast-forward button?

75.62% Rewind button

11.75% Fast-forward button

12.63% Don't Know/Unsure

I chose rewind because I'd like to see my Pops and cousins again.

I've been watching Tommy S's videos all week long. It has been helping me cope with my depression. If it wasn't for it, I would have been running down the road, screaming and hoping someone hits me. Lately, he's been playing this song in his videos. I had been avoiding it until I finally listened to it.

It's a sad song. I let my brother listen to it and the facial gestures he displayed when he says someone sampled it. It was Avant!

10/24 You know... I've been thinking about last year. It had me feeling, I thought I was doing everything right. Got another job, had a better attitude there than I did with the previous one, went to a prayer group, only to leave that job and end up alone. I wonder what went wrong? I need to just walk away...

What made me smile today was seeing that this company allowed me to get paid through Paypal, so that's where my funds went to. I was originally going to get Amazon since I need some more books to purchase but Imma hit up that casino and win a little cash first.

10/25 I noticed that this moth is flying around in my room again. I hadn't seen a moth in my room in months. I looked up the meaning:

Moths are often associated with change, particularly the darker side of change, such as loss and endings.

However, it’s essential to recognize that change is a natural part of life, and new opportunities often arise from these endings.

The appearance of a moth in your home can serve as a positive omen, reassuring you that your current challenges are temporary and that new doors will soon open.

In times of darkness and loneliness, a moth’s presence can offer comfort and remind you of the inner light that can guide you through difficult moments.

Embrace the lessons these spiritual messengers bring and trust in the transformative power of change.

Another source says: your deceased ancestors or relatives are visiting.💔

Well if this doesn't make me even more depressed...

I've been editing my stories. I miss my writing. I need to go back to doing the things I love.

When I was on the phone with Creole Bella tonight, one of the funniest things I told her, was that last night, those peckerwoods and coons were out there in that rain at the L-SUck game last night. Can you imagine how it smelled out there? I told her that I told my Mom that I have PTSD from working around these White folks. Don't make no damn sense to not bathe man!

1/28 As you can tell on Twitter, I have been having fun last night as I was watching The WWE Royal Rumble and the Lakers Vs. Warriors NBA game! I mean, I really had fun. I feel like I haven't smiled and laughed in a while. Just like my mother said the other day, the news is depressing. I said yeah which is why a lot of people don't watch it anymore.

1/30 Can you guys believe I left the house? I feel like it's been forever! Here's some pictures I took of myself.

Hellooooooo curls! I feel like I haven't smiled in forever.

I went down memory lane and these lyrics 'if you asked me to' came to mind so I went looking for the song.

Used to be that I believed in something

Used to be that I believed in love

It's been a long time since I've had that feeling

I could love someone, I could trust someone

I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again, darlin'

I said I'd never let nobody in

But if you asked me to

I just might change my mind

And let you in my life forever

If you asked me to

I just might give my heart

And stay here in your arms forever

She low key put out some good music! Definitely correlates to how I'm feeling right now...

1/31 Look at me...

I baked me a pie. Apple pie!

Next month, I will be focusing on my horror and 3r0t1c horror stories. Yes, this will require research. And also, the books will be available for sale at our store!

Skincare Tips from Facebook

Renae S. Baca ·

Go cut an aloe vera outside an slime it on your face till it dries ... theres some free beauty tips to save your dollars ...dont believe me google the benefits- great 4 wrinkles helps produce collagen an tightens skin to look younger xoxo -YOUR WELCOME ❤️

Bunker Jennifer

Lisa Benavides yes too high. You can use fresh lemon or orange slices to brighten your skin, take away discoloration. It usually takes about a month if used daily. Putting honey on your face then lightly slapping your face for 4 minutes pulls out dark pores and leaves a glowing smooth skin. Putting avocado on your face for a few minutes moisturizes. Us woman pay for processed lotions when there is natural remedies. I use a baby oil that is cocoa butter in a gel form by Johnson & it leaves my skin glowing for hours.

Marjorie Patricia Wood

Lisa Benavides plunge face in ice water several time. It's has diminished my malasma more than alllll the creams out there!! Period!! Fk this co and all the bs. Ice water plunge!!

really, really!! I do it after work everyday! I've spend hundred if not thousands of dollars on gadgets, creams, lights, etc for the last 20 years... nothing has worked. And I have one of the worst melasma cases. Ice wsters is free. I honestly cant beluece it. Try it!

Ha!

With that being said, I will be sticking with the skin care I have and won't purchase anymore. I already have so many, especially from companies sending them to me as well! I like doing my own natural skincare as well(sorry, I don't give away beauty secrets but you can join my Patreon to read my skincare reviews).

And this is all for the January 2024 blog post! If you've found this post of interest, feel free to comment, share or submit a donation. Au revoir fends~✌

P.S. And we can't finalize the New Year without putting some respeck on Winter Tokyo!