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Well it's the first. Mom reminded me that it's been three months since my step brother passed. I hadn't forgotten. Just painful to think about. Just like I haven't really recovered from Dad's passing.
I've verified my Patreon. Looking forward to having you guys aboard! I've got some exciting content and many more to come!
I've been reading all weekend. The more I read, the closer I can get to starting on my books.
12/2 My Ulta first package arrived today~ I say first because I've ordered three times! Don't worry, I'm getting cash back on EVERYTHING!
I won't be mentioning this to a certain individual because first of all, you have to work out for products like this to work! If you are not committed to a steady work out regiment, then stick to wearing cheap ＊ss butt pads from Temu! This is directed at a b＊tch in my family so don't worry.
Anyways, my step sister gave me some money for my birthday Arigato!!
I cashed out one time because it was a discount to do so. I'll probably cash out everything next year/month. I don't need that money that bad.
12/3 I jumped up and gathered some freebies together to give to my step sister. She's really come through for me. I'm going to make sure she gets stuff from me as well.
Mom tells me she misses Red Robin. They are still sending me emails and such. As I was trying to say I miss that place, I said I miss them, meaning my step brother and father. We used to go there, we used to go to different places together, I really do miss them though. She says the holidays aren't the same anymore. It sure isn't. It's even more toxic that it was years ago.
It's just the two of us...
Mom handed me a voucher from a casino in another town. I said woo!! I was waiting on it to arrive! I want to win big there again like I did a year ago!
12/4 Whoa a Dino Crisis Rebirth remake? I checked it out! Took me down memory lane! Even the music sounds the same!
12/6 Here's my second batch from Ulta.
MAรLYS MINI ICONS Cult-Classic Travel Bundle
The body sculpting brush and mini arm lift cream(gave to Mom) was free with purchase!
And here's some more Macy's perfume samples!!
I'm giving my step sister two of these in her batch!
Last, but not least, I received my first payment in the form of a Visa card from Focus Group! I was skeptical of this website but it's legit! Will post my proof on my How to Make Money Online post.
Retro Game of the Night- Massacre At The Mirage
Wow wow WOW!! This game was awesome and definitely takes you back to the 80s with the slasher theme to it! The death scenes as well as the music had me wanting more! Love this game!
12/7 Video Game of the Night- Creepy Shift: Roadside Diner
Very spooky game! I enjoyed it!
12/8 Today is my birthday! I had a strange event upon waking up that starts with an 'o' lmao! I don't know why it happened but it did and it felt great!๐
You guys are wondering if family wished me a happy birthday. They only did it offline but the ones on my Facebook list didn't wish me anything. Just former coworkers and old friends. I've already told you guys months ago that I was done with my family so I shouldn't be surprised.
I did my runarounds to BJ's Restaurant, Olive Garden, Starbucks and Chili's!
Also, here's my outfit of the Day!
Eye Makeup- Claire's
Lipstick- L.A. Colors
Necklace/Top- Rainbow
White women loved my outfit, complimenting my hat and my shirt. I was actually glad a man didn't say anything to me. But a Mexican guy did hold the door for me and I complimented HIM on how he was dressed. Almost makes me feel bad that some will be deported. Can we get BM out of here? LMAO
I got a phone call from Creole Bella. What got me, was when I mentioned the White women who complimented me, she says 'f＊ck em.' After thinking about it, she's right! Any other time, these heaux don't hold doors for me(just like their smelly, skid mark underwear wearing so called male counterparts do as well) or just being a b＊tch in general! I don't dress to impress nobody, which is why I have a bunch of clothes and shoes with tags still on them! I remember saying years back in this blog about how these folks will only be nice to you if you're being dressed up. But even still, some of them are disrespectful(i.e. WW, WM, and BM).
12/9 My Sephora products finally arrived!
I chose the Vegamour brand for my free birthday gift because I've been seeing this brand around and I currently need something for hair growth(still trying to get these thin spots to grow!) Looking forward to trying all of this!! Going into the new year still looking good!
Freebie of the Day
OGX® Renewing+ argan oil of Morocco Shampoo & Conditioner
Looking forward to using this as well!
12/10 I got some skincare from Dollar Tree.
Global Beauty Care Blemish Control Oil Free Clarifying Cleanser Foaming Gel, Blemish Control Oil Free Pore Cleaning Scrub, Global Beauty Care BLEMISH & DARK SPOT TREATMENT Cream Gel and Global Beauty Care Blemish Oil-Free Soothing Moisturizer - Aloe Vera & Cucumber Cooling Gel
Mom asks 'Xin didn't you just buy skincare?'๐ Me- NOPE!๐ I didn't spend that much because I need to continue saving up. I am so excited for the current project I'm in that's high paying. When I cash out again, I will post on my How To Make Money post how much I made. I'm glad that I got into this website because I had been receiving emails from them for years and never decided to join until this year! And I'm glad I did because I really need the funds!
12/11 I finished up with the big project I had to do online. I just hate that after I eventually get the payment, I have to wait damn near a month to get my Visa gift card. The positive about it, is that you can remove the funds.
12/12 Health update- I have been sick these past couple of days. Can't figure out why, I've actually been sick most of the year. If it's not mentally(depression), it's physically(prefer not to disclose). There are days where I question my own mortality.
And here's my last parcel from Ulta!
This package took forever to get here! I hated how they didn't tape the damn bottles! We could smell the oil through the bubble envelope!
If you aren't familiar with Sweetspot, I actually received three wipes from them back in 2017. I was glad to see that Ulta carried these and it's in the scent I really like!
Olay for some reason, cancelled the melt samples. This place makes billions on skincare, they didn't have enough samples for everyone? With that said, I'm going through their products and won't purchase from them again. Actually, I haven't purchased anything from them since 2021.
12/13 OMG It's Friday the 13th! Let me address something real fast.
Sometimes on X/Twitter, I might repost tweets from swirlers or whoever you want to call these women. This does not mean that I share the same story as them. I have never dated a BM and never will, however, I don't date White men either. I have a particular type of WM that I prefer that don't exist where I live. I mainly prefer wealthy CAUCASIAN(Mediterranean, Eastern European) men. If I find something interesting on there, I retweet it out of fun. Nothing else. I'm not going to pedestalize men who haven't done a damn thing for me, never protected me and etc. No need for me to talk about how great they are when they're not, nor do I need to call someone in the middle of the night to say 'girl I'm looking for me a White boy'. I could add to that tweet that there are older, divorced and miserable White men who wait til they're older to try to date BW too. They're usually the main ones I have a major gripe with. Ain't nobody trying to walk around with something old, spotty and can't walk. Plus WM don't like opinionated women and one thing they hate about opinionated women, is one with a good memory who'll call them out. The lady in the tweet said 'men of other races' so this includes Asians, Hispanics and etc. Not everything has to be about WM. I recently reposted an AM/BW couple. I want to see more couples like this! I ain't looking for no WM(especially down here)... Please love yourselves...
I've looked into my email inbox to see that my account with High 5 casino had been reinstated. I am actually surprised to see but even shocking is them calling me by my pseudonym 'Xin' and not my real name. Hmm whatever! I have to decide before the 1st what to do with these funds!
I decided to check out Lee-Jung Jae's you know what scenes and here's my reaction(Bryan).
Damn that dude was so fine back in the day!๐๐๐
12/14 I am still feeling ill but I will be dragging my ＊ss out to the casino for my free money. Today, I decided to remain in bed and check out some horror games. I've got a bunch of Christmas themed treats to watch during the week towards Xmas!
Our Lady of Sorrow
PATHOGEN X
Waffle Cone Willie
I went again and cashed out for the Apple gift card. It came with a bonus so this will help me in purchasing my iPad. My first iPad! I'm going to use this baby to make some money on it!
I finally ate my Black Tie Mousse Cake from Olive Garden.
12/15 I went gambling at the casino with the free cash. I didn't win much but I just wanted to get out of the house. I went to another one that I am a regular at. I'm getting tired of playing poker, I need to go back to how I got into gambling, which was slot machines!!
12/17 I went to get some food for my step sister as it's her birthday. Then we ate at Burger King. I got the big king fish sandwich, mozzarella sticks and frozen blueberry Fanta drink. I used points to get the first one.
What got me about this trip, is this old BM. I'm standing with my back turned and he speaks. Why do they do this? Why do they speak AT women? I ignored him of course. But then he walks up, drying his hands with paper towels and speaks again. I give him a stern I'M GOOD! Jesus Christ dude! I was enjoying being ignored by them but then they out of the blue, start trying to get my attention. I don't think I'm hot sh＊t, I just don't like y'all or any of the men from down here. I know what y'all want, one of your sorry ＊ss offsprings told me this four years; I just want some attention. I refuse to give it to y'all as well as my body. Got enough ugly kids in the family! Learn to read the damn room but coming out of those demon portals(BW), you can't do sh＊t right! Go away!
I went to Crapmart to reload myself up on my H/S/N stuff.
I got an Oral-B rechargeable toothbrush!
I purchased my first iPad. Surprisingly, it was cheaper than my Galaxy tablets! I'm purchasing this to make money on only. Lets get it!
No more spending for a while! Gotta build myself back up! The iPad and the new toothbrush are going under the tree! Don't want to spoil myself too much. lol I got two baby pink bins so I can separate my boots from the sandals. Bins come in handy when you're trying to move.
12/18 I woke up and checked out that online casino that will be shutting down our accounts next month. Man, I hit a bonus on it! I was shocked! Shoot, if I score another bonus, I might be able to cash out again! I did discover some alternative sites to use. I will be using those real soon!
12/21 I decided to have a Christmas/Winter themed video games weekend!
Santa Claws
SLAY BELLS(Retro themed. Loved the music!)
Wintertwined (pretty cool Anime styled game but it was only a demo!)
Crimson Snow(this game was really good! OMG could have been a good movie!)
Bram the Toy Maker(not really Xmas but the ending was hilarious!)
12/22 Boring day. Tonight, I decided to check out the Until Dawn Remake. Looks pretty much the same as the one I watched years ago. Those quotable insults are still hilarious! "You couldn't buy a moldy loaf of bread with your sk＊nky ＊ss."-Jessica LMAO I wonder why they remade it. I looked to see that there is a movie coming out based on this. But the names are different. Why not use the original cast?
12/24 I got my iPad! I was so excited! OMG!!!
I've already set it up and wow, can't wait for the young moolah baby!! 2025 gone be the year for my finances to get better! I guarantee it! Instead of being depressed tomorrow, I'm going to focus on making money. Edit- I've decided to start making money early baby!
12/25 It's Christmas and I'm not with it today. It's so much I could write on here but I'd rather not say. I just know that whenever someone dies, everyone else never changes. They're still the same; same mentality, same ignorance. I've been on my tablets all day. Sometimes I wonder if this is even worth it...
September 7th(seems like a Russian horror game. I loved the retro music in it)
My Grandparents Christmas Mystery (too short but a good game, very creepy!)
CHRISTMAS NIGHT(this game was spooky and interesting! Like a horror version of Home Alone!)
Krampus Kills(this game was the Christmas version of DOOM! LMAO)
Oh and here's my Xmas cookies.
12/29 I apologize for not writing much. Kinda over it. Well, I've been playing games online for cash. So far, it's been going well for me. Need to build myself up into the new year when I cash out. But with these funds, I will add this on to the new year build up.
I need to go back to reading but haven't been feeling like it. I've been thinking about it but I just can't push myself to even pick up a book. All I can think about is leaving Louisiana. It's just so much sadness here...
12/31 I went gambling today. Won me some money for my cell phone bill. I should be straight for a while. Well, it's the end of the year. I thought today was the 30th but it's actually the end of 2024. Boy, this year definitely started off somewhat ok until I had that bad toothache and had that expensive surgery! Then losing my step brother. The days and holidays are getting lonelier and lonelier for me. I wonder how my mental health is going to continue at this point. All I wanted was to be happy, get what I wanted in life. Instead, I end up alone; no family, no friends, nobody. I heard someone calling my name at the casino and I turned to see a classmate. I hadn't seen her in years. She walks up to give me a hug. She told me that she likes the way my hair looks. I don't remember the last time I've gotten a compliment on my hair. I know she'll go on social media and tell people 'boy, Lin has changed.' And this will be ok. I'm not a happy person anymore. I haven't been happy in a long time, but this time, despite me smiling in my photos, I am not happy at all. I don't know if I'll be happy again.
Selfie of the Day
And this concludes this post for this month and also the year. I didn't do an end of the year horror game list that I like. You guys can click on the Video Game label to see which games I enjoyed this year. If you've found this post of use, feel free to comment, share and submit a donation. Au revoir~✌